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Making Fresh Tracks in the Snow : A Life Perspective on Snowshoeing in the ADKS

This past weekend, my husband and I traveled to a never before experienced destination. We have always enjoyed summer visits to the Adirondack Mountains but it was not until a few years ago that we discovered their unparalleled and unique silent beauty in winter.

It had been many moons since I had hit the ski slopes, due to a knee injury suffered in my youth. So, about six years ago when our youngest adult son shared with us his discovery of snowshoeing, I was inspired! Just maybe this was something I could do! Not on the high peaks like him, but as a baby beginner on flatlands.

My husband thought so too, and soon after surprised me with a beautiful pair of aluminum snow shoes and a set for himself as well! On went the knee wraps and the triple-layered clothing. Off we went into the world of discovering the marvels of winter snowshoeing.

Even my own backyard became a magical wonderland. I was like a little child seeing everything for the first time. The trees took on a charming royalty, like guards standing on the perimeter of the forest. The winter sun watched over me as light snowflakes flitted around me, decorating my path. I moved one leg forward, then the other. The poles I held in each hand helped me maneuver into a rhythmical pace and I was on my way. This was doable. This was wonderful.

Soon we discovered local parks as if for the first time as we made new tracks through the local forest trails. Everything looked different, felt different under a fresh covering of pure snow. Something was exhilarating and creative about making fresh tracks where there was never any before. That was the beginning. I was captivated.

We made our first winter trip to the Lake Placid area and were introduced to a place called John Brown’s Farm just outside the village and near to high Mt. Van Hoevenberg, site of the Olympic ski jumping events of past years. Trails were relatively flat and easy to navigate but there were ruts from cross country skiers who had been there before us. Still, we found our rhythm gliding through the woods which were lit up by lanterns hanging from the snow-covered evergreen boughs and upper tree trunks. The quiet arrested me. It was all encompassing. The air was pure, cool and refreshing. The pine aroma was intoxicating. Why hadn’t we discovered this sooner? I breathed in this new reality and it traveled deep down into the roots of my soul.

In following years we discovered the Cascade Cross country Skiing facility and were thrilled to learn that it too had numerous snowshoeing trails at the base of that mountain. Their paths were well-worn but enjoyed nevertheless by us with childlike hearts.

So, this past weekend we arrived in snowy Wilmington near to the base of Whiteface Mountain. Cadence Lodge welcomed us with rustic charm in the little village so far North. My husband had seen on a map a snowshoeing trail at a place called The Flume whose water tumbled into the Ausable River. We had been by this locale in Summer but never in Winter.

At first, it seemed a little foreboding. The weather forecast was predicted to be cold, even subzero. What were we thinking? Had we overstepped our realistic capabilities. After all, we were not growing any younger. No, we had not come all this way just to enjoy food in newly discovered ADK restaurants. We hunkered down for the night and hibernated until morning in our little lodge room.

Morning light came and with it, a fresh coat of snow. After a hearty ADK breakfast, we began the ritual of donning three layers of Winter clothing. Included were special socks, boots and warming packets to be placed inside thermal mittens and gloves. After sufficient arctic protection was placed, we made our way toward the Flume.

After a series of tortuous twists and turns on the mountain road, we arrived. The scene was before us in a pristine covering of sparkling snow beneath a sudden appearance of mid-morning sun peeking out from behind a frozen cloud.

We endured the manifold calisthenics of bending down to connect the multiple fastenings of the snowshoes onto our boots. Such a feat with cold hands is not easily managed but soon the satisfying sounds of secured clasps and buckles gave us permission to proceed with the adventure.

Some brown trail signs with the characteristic yellow lettering pointed the way to several paths. We chose the one that paralleled the river and slowly, methodically began our trek.

No other tracks appeared! Ours were the very first. White and undisturbed, like a newly created Winter garden of wonder,…it was ours to experience. The simplicity of it halted me. I wanted to be present in the moment and take it all in.

My husband proceeded a ways ahead of me. I listened to the cascading, crisp winter waterfalls tumbling down the flume to crash into the swiftly moving, partially frozen river. I could see it from where I was as I found my rhythm and moved onto the crisp trail.

It led me down a gradual descent where I discovered a breathtaking view of a snow covered mountainous expanse in the distance. Here was a Winter Paradise that we were discovering for the very first time as we made fresh tracks. It was like no one else was around. The silence was deafening and magnificent. Soon a few other Winter hikers appeared and we shared the newly found wonder. They took our picture so we could document our dream.

The trail then led up a gradual incline and curled into the quiet woods. We proceeded methodically, rhythmically. Again, no other snowshoe tracks appeared. Our were the first! Something new was being created for the first time! I felt like I was being newly created too!

We arrived at the top where there was a crossroads. We stopped. I breathed in the quietude, took in the soul restoration, felt such gratitude to creation and the Creator. There was nothing like this. Oh to capture it, to savor it, to remember it always in the scrapbook of my memory’s imagination.

We made our way slowly back down the hill and bid adieu to the river and her waterfalls. Something was enlarged and more alive inside of me. Nature and I had a new connection, a new charm on my life experience bracelet. Something existed that had not been there before. Strange as it seemed, Winter had become my new companion.

Hours after we arrived back at the lodge and days after we arrived home, I still mused on that snowy ADK day of discovery. Making fresh tracks in the snow. What was there about that? A creation the snow and I had made together. Something forged to show I was there. Something so other that I do not know if anyone else would understand… until I told my son, the one who inspired me to snowshoe, about our trip.

He listened to my story and description of our day. He then asked me a question,” Mom, did you get to make fresh tracks?” “Yes,” I said, and waited. Then he added in a final, simple yet glorious response, ” Good, Mom. That’s my favorite part.”

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Winter Night Thoughts : Is There a Place to Rest and Hide From the Dark?

Darkness has fallen and I gaze out into the winter evening through the glass. February snowflakes are swirling down and wildlife has found its deep hiding places for an overnight nap. I wonder where the birds go, into what place the deer huddle, where other creatures hide from the cold night. The deep woods next door to my homestead hold these secrets in an unseen place.

And I wonder where do people go when the darkness has fallen? When the icy branches of life’s circumstances seem to claw at all of us and the North wind of newscasts brings a deep freeze to dailyness, where do everyday folks go to huddle and hide until it is safe to come out? Is there such a place in real life? What deep forest holds the precious secrets of these unseen places?

I muse about my own life and the journeys of my youthful past which led me on a winding trail of searching, persevering and discovery amidst seasons of deep darkness, trauma, failure, rich fulfillment, healing, creative expression, finding the reason(s) I was born.

As a young student I remember asking for the reasons why I was created and trying to understand how the swirlings going on inside me were representative of those going on in the world around me. The coldness of the times, the darkness of the world were intensifying and I longed for a place to go to hide and feel safe until the fury ceased.

I heard voices, many voices. One however, was different than all others. It came to me in ways that made sense to me deep down inside. It called out to me through other people, from words I’d read, from things I had somehow known. It reached way down into my roots and my inner knower. It felt good and real and clean.

“Come to me all you who are heavy laden and I will give you rest. take my yoke upon you for I am lowly of heart and my burden is easy. You will find rest for your soul.”

So my heart said yes. I came to Him as if He were standing in front of me. The unrest inside me immediately ceased. I wanted more. I investigated the claims of Jesus Christ and longed for Him to be more than a historical figure for me. Could it be true? Was He still alive even in my lifetime? My heart hungered to know the truth so I asked Him to show me if He was.

A series of circumstances began to happen in my life which bore witness to His reality. Conversations with others read me out loud right where I was at, as if I was being guided by something much greater than myself. And the words that kept coming to me…

” Let not your heart be troubled. Believe in God, believe also in Me… I will pray the Father and He will give you another Helper, that He may abide with you forever, the Spirit of truth…I will not leave you orphans; I will come to you.”

The words were alive and had power. I claimed them for myself. That was in the winter of 1972. Something began to happen inside me and has never stopped. I felt clean, sane, completely new! The truth of who I was always meant to be was released in me and through me ever increasingly. I knew a peace I had never experienced before.

Since that time I have continued to grow in freedom and known intimately the power of living by another’s life reality.

My soul had found its resting place in a very real Christ. Not religion, not trying harder or thinking better…but surrendering my life to Him and discovering my true identity as a well-loved daughter even on my very worst day… or dark, cold winter night. Holy Spirit is my best friend who I cannot live without. He displaced the darkness.

“Arise, Shine! For your light has come! And the glory of the Lord is risen upon you. For behold, darkness shall cover the earth, and deep darkness the people; But the Lord will arise over you, And His glory will be seen upon you.”

So even as the deep woods offer wildlife a place to hide and rest from the storms and cold, amidst the dark… there is a secret place for my heart and soul to rest and be revived. It is a place prepared for me, and for you, since before the dawn of time and the falling of a very cold night.

That place is a person. That person IS peace. Just ask Him to show you if He is real.

You weren’t meant to live in the dark.

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Thanksgiving As a Lifestyle Along Life’s Journey

I am learning the antidote to so many issues of the heart is gratitude

It is a typical tradition for me to review my life and year each time November comes around and brings the holiday of Thanksgiving with it. As the days grow shorter and darker, it is a natural time to embark on a journey of reflection, a bit of introspection and assessment of my life path. I am so thankful for this.

This year’s journey has lengthened my stride and enlarged something inside of me. It has brought me to an awareness that the one whom I know as my God has been revealed to me in brand new ways as I have invited this amazing presence into my vulnerable spaces. My life history with this God has grown to include new experiences which have changed me for the better in ways I could never have done for myself alone. I am beyond grateful.

As I have come to places of decision making I have needed wisdom. I have needed to be set free from fear of failure, of thinking too small with a residual poverty mindset and for a new trust in the One I have come to know as a loving, personal Father, even though He also has a beautiful and tender mother heart.

The most recent decision for me has been to search for, research and purchase a new, previously- owned vehicle. My wonderful Subaru Forester friend of fifteen-years-old was still going strong but speaking to me of aches and pains that come with 158,000 miles. Although she still had much life left in her, I knew we were due for an upgrade. This was bittersweet, exciting, scary and wonderful.

As I prayed into this, I looked into several different dealerships and online options. I took time to interview various reps of these used car businesses as well as actually considering new and leased vehicles. Time after time my heart would lead me back to low mileage 2018-2019 Subaru Foresters or Crosstreks. This process was very symbolic for me as I took stock of my life and where I wanted to be in the next 5 or 6 years, the time it would take to pay for this next car.

My red Subaru Forester represented a maturing time in my life where the Subaru motto “confidence in motion” came to also describe how I was learning to live and move in my various spheres of influence as a woman, well-loved daughter, wife, mother, Birthing Center Nurse, writer and prophetess. I learned that “Subaru” is a Japanese word for “Pleiades” a beautiful open-star cluster in the night sky. I was destined for the heavens as I journeyed here on earth. I was comfortable in my own skin and supremely grateful.

For years, I had driven my standard “stick shift” friend, named “Scarlet” through stormy nights to help deliver babies, through many miles to help lay my father to rest, to be with friends in need, to rejoice with and be present with people I love. I was so grateful for it all and for my red friend.

This particular journey ultimately led me to a local Subaru dealership that I always felt was above me. It seemed like I had arrived at the right destination yet I was thinking too small. As I surrendered this mindset to my Papa God, He removed it and settled my heart. All the details began to fall into place. I test drove several vehicles and a blue Forester was standing out to me. Just four years old and low in mileage, this car offered comfort, safety, efficiency and beauty to me. Something inside was stretching, enlarging, seeing myself as new and accepting this possibility. I felt empowered, prepared and equipped to make this decision. I realized I was ready. I realized I was thankful.

My search had begun at the end of September and continued through October. As I had prayed, researched, dreamed about several cars and got pre-qualified financially at my credit union, I heard in my heart ” it would be good in October but so much better in November.” He was guiding me. I chose to wait until November. I was so very grateful.

The morning of November 9, Scarlet and I made our final drive. We arrived at Van Bortel Subaru and I was teary. Silly as it may seem to some, I expressed gratitude to Scarlet for all her years of service to me and released her to bless someone else. I shared my heart with the lady behind the desk at the showroom. She was kind and suggested I take a picture with my red car next to my blue car. That was very comforting. I sincerely thanked her.

I had been working with a wonderful salesperson “Ben” who was patient, empowering and helpful. I also met Kitty Van Bortel, a very kind business woman par excellence. She is founder and president of Van Bortel Subaru and had actually ridden in Scarlet when my red friend was being assessed for trade-in value. Kitty understood my bittersweet soul. She seconded the plan to take a picture with both vehicles next to her, myself and Ben. Little did I know she planned to post it on the Van Bortel site page, along with a wonderful sentiment. She had no idea I am a writer and poet when she penned beneath our photo:” from Subaru to Subaru, from red to blue, may every adventure be wonderful for you! Safe travels.” She added “After 15 years of love with a beloved Subaru Forester, it was time for a fresh one.”

This was no coincidence! My God knew just what I needed and made sure I received it in my own personal love language of writing. Perfect timing on a perfect day. Wait ’til November! I am so grateful I did.

Thankful in loss and transition…thankful in being blessed. Grateful when content with little and grateful when being honored with much. Gratitude restores the soul in a timeless, personal way. It even heals grief.

I was grateful for the day when I drove my blue Forester off the lot and began to bond with her. I was grateful as I continued to learn about the Pleiades or Subaru and discovered they are known as blue stars. They are called the stars of November as that is when they rise and are first clearly seen. They speak of having vision for this time in my life. Their name also means “one who gathers.” I researched the names of the “seven sisters” stars of Subaru. I chose Alcyone, the brightest one, for my new blue friend and will call her “Alcy” for short. It is such a pleasure to travel with her. I feel safe. I feel special. I feel inspired. I shine like the stars.

I had the opportunity to speak a blessing over Kitty Van Bortel and also to Ben. My journey in time had brought me to a significant upgrade in my own self-worth. This God who fathers me and loves me so much was showing me how to love myself.

I found myself standing in a place of convergence. Things had lined up and a place inside of me was stretching and enlarging in this experience. Vulnerability was giving way to blessing. The Lord of the starfields was revealing himself to me in yet another remarkable way. The provision of a fresh vehicle symbolized a new way to live and move and have my being. I was moving from “Confidence in motion” to being “a visionary who gathers.”

Thanksgiving and gratitude are this new way. They cover me and lead me in a lifestyle of health in my soul. Yes, each year at this time, November comes around. As the days grow shorter and darker, it is a natural time to embark on a journey of reflection, a bit of introspection and assessment of my life path. But darkness is not neccesarily a bad thing. As I look up at the stars in the night sky, I am so grateful for He who makes me to shine with confidence in motion and vision to gather like Alcyone, my new star friend.

Thank-you, dear Papa. Thank-you.

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August Guest

Enjoying the warmth of this seasonal guest’s visit and wanting her to linger

August sunshine splashes through the window

onto the guest room floor

on a still Tuesday morning

marked by cricket hum backdrop.

The season has seasoned,

summer establishing herself

in this dear month

of pleasant present,

not seeking to impress,

but just being irresistibly lovely and intentional,

splashing her August sunshine

onto my guest room floor.

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August

Thoughts on the final day of this marvelous month…

Like a plump, lush peach

is August to me …

fully-ripened sweet summer at peak,

to smell and hold and taste,

and savor,

before she becomes soft

past-priming, into a different color …

and new memory.

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Fireflies Nuance

Wanderlust calls.

And my childlike heart

responds instantly to the invitation.

Off into the field of wonderment

I go …

pulled into the magnificent space

of the fireflies,

as they escort me

into their dimension,

bobbing, weaving, darting, blinking in unison

through the nuances of the woodlands

bordering my backyard

in enchantment.

Wanderlust calls.

Off into the field of wonderment

I go ,

imbibing summer’s perfume

in this moment

I wish never to forget

as I stand, halted …

taking it in,

in midst of her supernatural light display

of glory.

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Remembering

Every May I Remember

(For Danny)

Every May I remember the fragrant season of promise

when first I walked in a blossoming time

carrying a ripened load of life, amidst Spring’s bright horoscope.

I wondered how my future, our future, would morph and change

even as my body cradled the life within

that quickened and leapt with such infinite possibilities.

The young woman in me embraced the new

even as all of nature seemed to anticipate and reflect

the imminent emergence, never before seen.

Oh firstborn son of my youth, my heart reflects and muses on it still

for when I birthed you, I too was birthed once again.

Every May I remember.

Chrisoriley 5-25-21

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Musing About Life

My Inner Forests Are Stripped Bare

Sometimes a major change or formative event in your life can drastically change the landscape of your soul and inner life. Things that used to be are no more. You find that you are not what you once were but not yet what you are to become. Even in that formless and unsure gestational identity time, navigation from another realm can whisper the truth of who you are to your wondering heart. What happens then may be unprecedented as you watch what seemed dark and void erupt into a surprise discovery and overwhelming outpouring of praise!

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“The voice of the Lord makes the deer give birth, and strips the forest bare; And in His temple everyone says, ‘Glory!’ ” (Psalm 29:1-11)

And the forests within me have been stripped bare.

Thick, lush life as I have known, is hidden.

But within my frame, carried about by my bones

is his temple, where He is pleased to dwell.

And inside that temple, all wait on tiptoe, straining…

Anticipating something never before in existence

to emerge.

And from a deep place, a sound is heard, rising up

bringing illumination in its train.

Everyone begins to whisper “glory…” and movement escalates,

accelerating.

My heart says, “glory!” My brain says “glory!” My bones say “glory!”

Every joint, great and small says, “glory!”

Blood vessels, vital organs, systems, muscles,

tendons, blood, lymph, … all say “glory!”

And my soul joins in to what it is hearing

resounding throughout the temple,

while my spirit, mixed with His

in a satisfied, eternal knowing,

ever so slowly, with deeply etched ancient face creases,

smiles.

This was penned by the author following a major surgery season in her life where introspection of soul was experienced. Perceived inner scatteredness and brokenness led to breakthrough when God’s Spirit came gently into her personal space in a very unprecedented way. Significant change happened. This was one of the first times she wrote, unhindered, in her time of recovery.

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I Heard an Urgent Alarm in the Calling of the Crows

A Chance Encounter on a Snowy February Afternoon…

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The blatant cackling had been persistent for about ten minutes now. I had heard it before and knew it to be obnoxious crows. This is what they do from time to time. They pick a tree and gather in a seeming crow convention. You kind of learn to ignore it. This however was different. Accelerating in volume, intensity and maximum urgency, it drew me to the sliding glass door to peer outside. it was clear an alarm was being sounded that could not be ignored. But what was it?

I stepped out onto the deck, looked to my left and could not ignore the dramatic activity of multiple crows encircling a barren winter tree, at ever accelerating velocity. They were of one purpose with their mission, but what was it?

Suddenly I saw it! How could I have missed it? A single, majestic red-tailed hawk perched high up on a singular winter branch had snared a lone black crow. The captured one made no movement as it lay in the efficient, all-encircling talons of the hawk. Surely this was no contest between the two fowl families. All seemed lost for this unfortunate crow. Too little, too late, as they say.

And then an unexpected, marvelous thing happened, right before my eyes. Additional forces of crows appeared on the scene assisting their comrades. Their mission’s pace increased to a yet higher intensity. Around and around the crow army flew and called out. It was as if all the world was being invited to stop what it was doing and witness what was about to take place.

The dignified hawk abruptly dropped the seemingly lifeless crow from its great talons. Simultaneously, the crow stirred, “came to itself” and mounted up into the air while the hawk spread its massive wings and took efficient flight in the same direction towards the forest that adjoins our property.

Not to be outdone, the cackling group of crows mounted their flight like a well-oiled machine in pursuit of their clan’s new mortal enemy. The aerial display of the hawk swooping up and down in mid-air to dislodge his pursuers was impressive and inspiring to say the least. The volume of the pursuit, like the previous rescue, increased seemingly for all the world to hear and be impressed by. It did however take itself to an unseen realm in the woods where I could no longer observe and be amazed by this chance encounter.

So what lessons could I take away from this serendipitously observed event on a February winter’s afternoon? Power in numbers? Never give up? United purpose, agreeing “as one” never fails?

I found that I could not settle on a single inspirational message from what I had just been privileged to witness. Rather, I would simply savor in gratitude the wonder of creation and its Creator in those rare moments when I have been seemingly invited to behold what for many, is unseen…beyond the veil of dailiness. That day I was given the eyes to see and hears to hear. It was urgent alarm and more… in the calling of the crows.

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Undefined / All Things Made New

Reflections in the immediate post-operative time after having received a hip replacement joint into my body

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And I sit…

where there are no definitions.

The borders of who I have been in everyday living

have been put away.

This new part of my body

is yielding to my skeleton

and my bones are cleaving to it

in mutual introduction.

What is expected in dailiness is not yet formed.

And so I sit

where something never before existing

is being formed and fused and held together

by the word of his power.

… While I wait in surrender

and yield to the new thing,

bidding it welcome

into the space

undefined.